so im spending the night at my friend brooke’s house. And I may be getting my lip peirced. Im excited. I may take pix….but i dont know. im trying to do this thing where I dont live my life through a camra screen. Maybe that will work, maybe not. I dont think im going to go back to school. I dont see the point. I wanted to go back so that I could face my problems head on and give a big FUCK YOU to the people that said that I couldnt. but its gotten to the point where I dont want to go back, so Im going to do what I want. and not let anyone else make my choices for me. Its my life so fuck off and let me live it.
“if you let them fuck you there will be no foreplay rest assured they’ll screw you complete till your ass is blue and grey”
Somehow I seem to have lost my incubus cds, i think its time to redownload them. My sister told me to stop listening to morning view so much, because it has sad songs, and right now i need to listen to happy music. and i need to just go ahead and deal with the fact that I am no longer in a relationship. And how could I possibly get over it that fast. She thinks Im not dealing with my feelings. only because she hasnt seen my curl up with some ice cream. Maybe shes right. or maybe i’ll just keep doing what im doing cause it seems to be working just fine.
I dont know why im still holding on to him.I mean everyone loses their high school sweet heart right? why should I be any different. I really need to just let go and jump in the water head first. somebody push me becuase I dont think that I can just jump. some one push me.
im going back to school. it should be interesting. mainly because its the last school i went to when i was with tee. but the past is forgotten and im gunna go into it head held fucking high. i know i can make it.
(via messycupcake) I am wife. she loves me.
I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy…happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I’m counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy…happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here
The world’s a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:
I wish you were here
I wish you were
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here
thank you incubus for putting everything im feeling into something catchy to sing along with. in the past i have strayed away from you amazing lyrics and your beautiful notes, but always remember no matter what you will have my heart.
